First · Patterns
See the loop
The same relationship in a different face. The yes you didn't mean. The voice that's harder on you than anyone else. We trace the pattern back to where it began, and to what it was protecting.
Hello, I'm Maryrose
Break the pattern · Build inner safety · Trust yourself again
A way back home to yourself.
I help women see the patterns that shaped them, build enough inner safety to change them, and learn to trust themselves enough to become who they're meant to be.
Pattern Mapping Sessions open in December 2026
Start here
One gentle step at a time.
- 1Find your loopFree quiz · 2 minutesTake the quiz
- 2Understand itLive workshop · from £15
- 3Map it with mePattern Mapping Session · from £75
- 4Change it togetherFounding circle · January 2027
- 5Keep coming homeThe Inner Room · 2027See the membership
Before anything else
Take one minute to land here.
Safety comes before change. Breathe in as the rings open, and let the breath out slowly as they gather back in. Six rounds is enough.
The way through
Patterns, then safety, then self-trust, then becoming.
Understanding why you repeat what hurts you is the first door. It isn't the last one. This is the order the work happens in, because each step makes the next one possible.
Then · Safety
Feel safe enough to change
Through breath, sound, energy work and gentle reflection, we build enough steadiness in your body that a different ending stops feeling like danger.
Then · Self-trust
Keep small promises
Self-trust is built in small kept promises. We practise them until your own word starts to feel like solid ground.
And then · Becoming
Become who you're meant to be
When old protection no longer runs the show, there's room to remember who you were beneath the noise, and to grow into who you're becoming.
You might be here because
You can name your pattern. You still live it.
- You go back to what you know will hurt, because it's what you know.
- You say yes before you've checked whether you mean it.
- Calm feels strange, almost suspicious, so part of you goes looking for the storm.
- You second-guess choices you made hours ago.
- The harshest voice in your life is your own.
- Knowing your pattern isn't the same as breaking it. That isn't a failure. It's simply where the work begins.
What the herbs remember
Rose · Rosa damascena
Sub rosa
In Latin, "under the rose". For centuries a rose hung above a table meant that whatever was said beneath it stayed there.
It's the oldest promise of confidentiality I know, and the one I make in every session.
Herbal remedies I use
From my apothecary shelf
An honest note first. I've studied herbal medicine, but I'm not a qualified medical herbalist. These are simply the remedies that help me in my own life, shared as personal experience rather than advice.
Please check with your GP or pharmacist before trying any herb, especially if you're pregnant, breastfeeding, taking medication or living with a health condition.
Chamomile
Matricaria chamomilla
How I use itA cup in the evening when my mind won't settle.
Take carePart of the daisy family. Avoid it if you react to ragweed, daisies or marigolds.
Lemon balm
Melissa officinalis
How I use itAfter a long day, steeped with a little honey.
Take careCheck with your GP first if you take thyroid medication or sedatives.
Lavender
Lavandula angustifolia
How I use itA pinch in a blend, or a little bundle by my pillow before sleep.
Take careUse culinary-grade flowers. Lavender essential oil is not for drinking.
Nettle
Urtica dioica
How I use itA green daytime tea when I feel worn down and want something nourishing.
Take careCan interact with blood pressure, blood-thinning and diabetes medication.
Rose
Rosa damascena
How I use itIn tea and in the bath, on days I need a little softness.
Take careOnly use food-grade petals that haven't been sprayed.
Ginger
Zingiber officinale
How I use itFresh slices in hot water on cold mornings.
Take careCheck with your GP if you take blood thinners. Large amounts can upset a sensitive stomach.
My tea apothecary
Six small-batch blends, made for the quiet rituals that bring us back to ourselves.
Coming soon
Work with me
Start where you are. Every door leads home.
All sessions are online unless stated. If you're not sure where to begin, start with a Pattern Mapping Session.
Pattern Mapping Session
One deep, unhurried session to map the loop you keep living: where it started, what it protects, what it costs you now, and one small first step toward a different ending.
- Your pattern, written down in plain words
- Where it came from and what it was protecting
- A first small promise to keep this week
My first 10 sessions are at a founding price of £60, in exchange for your honest feedback.
Opens December
from £75
Why you repeat what hurts you
A gentle live workshop on how patterns form, why insight alone rarely changes them, and how safety makes room for something new.
from £15
The Self-Trust Reset
A short guided programme of small, kept promises, so your own word becomes something you can rely on again.
from £99
The founding circle
A small group of women walking the whole path together, from pattern to safety to self-trust to becoming. Founding members help shape the programme and join at a founding rate.
from £250 founding rate
Body, energy & spirit
The safety step
Insight lives in the mind. Safety lives in the body. These sessions help your nervous system soften enough for change to feel possible, and they sit beautifully alongside any of the work above.
Group sound ceremonies and events are held through The Solace Space, my sound healing home.
See ceremonies & events at The Solace Space ↗
Sound healing 1:1
Bowls, voice and vibration to quiet the noise and bring you back into your body.
Reiki
Gentle, hands-off energy work for rest, release and a felt sense of being held.
Spiritual counselling
Space to talk through what you're carrying, with room for meaning, faith and the bigger questions.
From the archive
Upon those who step into the same rivers, different and again different waters flow.Heraclitus · Fragment B12
In their words
From the women I've worked with
Membership · Opening 2027
The Inner Room
A quiet, steady place to come back to each month. For when you know the work and want somewhere safe to keep doing it, with company.
- A live monthly circle to reflect, share and practise together
- Recorded sound baths and Reiki meditations for the harder days
- The Sunday Archive in depth: the philosophy and stories behind the videos
- A monthly theme with journal prompts and small promises to keep
- A small, kind community of women walking the same path
Autumn 2027Doors open to founding circle members
2028Doors open to everyone
Planned at around £29–£35 a month. Waitlist members hear first.
This month · Calm feels wrongTheme
Sound bath for a busy mind22 min
Circle · first Sunday, 7pmLive
A preview of the planned space
Join the Inner Room waitlist
No payment and no pressure. You'll hear about the doors opening before anyone else.
About · Hello, I'm Maryrose
Spiritual counsellor, Reiki practitioner & sound healer.
My work blends grounded support with energy and sound medicine, to help you release, reconnect, and remember who you are beneath the noise.
I know these loops from the inside. I've understood a pattern perfectly and still watched myself repeat it. What changed things for me wasn't more insight. It was feeling safe enough, in my own body and in my own company, to choose differently and then keep choosing.
I draw on psychology, philosophy and many spiritual traditions, because I believe wisdom has many doors. You don't need to share my beliefs to work with me. You only need to be curious about your own.
Meet me in a minute
Who I help, why I do this work, and what a first session feels like.
- Knowing your pattern isn't the same as breaking it.Insight is the first door. Change needs safety and practice too.
- Safety comes before change.A nervous system on guard will choose the familiar every time.
- Patterns were protection.Each one began as a clever answer to a hard question.
- Self-trust is built in small kept promises.Confidence follows evidence, and you can start making it today.
- Wisdom has many doors.Psychology, philosophy and spirit each hold part of the map.
BSc PsychologyUniversity of Greenwich
Diploma in Spiritual CounsellingHolistic Healing College
Diploma in Holistic CounsellingHolistic Healing College
Diploma in Holistic HealingHolistic Healing College
Diploma in Counselling (traditional)Holistic Healing College
Certificate in Spiritual Life CoachingHolistic Healing College
Sound Healing & Reiki PractitionerQualified practitioner
The diplomas and certificate are CMA-accredited, through Holistic Healing College, a Complementary Medical Association registered college.
What I do, and what I don't
I have a BSc in Psychology, and I'm a qualified spiritual and holistic counsellor, holistic healing practitioner, spiritual life coach, sound healer and Reiki practitioner. I'm not a psychotherapist, psychologist or medical professional.
My content and programmes draw on psychology, philosophy and spiritual traditions to help you understand your patterns, feel safer in yourself and build self-trust. They're educational and supportive, not a substitute for medical, psychological or psychiatric care, and I don't diagnose or treat mental health conditions. If something we explore needs specialist support, I'll tell you honestly and help you find it.
If you're in crisis or at risk of harming yourself, please contact Samaritans on 116 123 (free, 24 hours), call NHS 111, or call 999 in an emergency.
